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Overcoming the wall

March 18, 2018

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So exactly 2 weeks ago I didn’t understand what was happening or what was coming. I thought it simply would pass, but suddenly it said BANG. I didn’t manage to do or feel anything, everything was dark. I had hit the wall. Having the flu at the time and the snow made me feel very isolated.

How did i fix it

I went toally back to basics and started again. Remembered a few things that i have been taught recently worked through my list. Did some jobs round the house. On the Sunday I managed to go for a run, and with the help from a couple close friends and my cousins you all helped me a great deal to overcome the wall. You all listened and you made sure i knew i had your support.

So I started off the week on the Monday with this sudden surge of energy and for the last 2 weeks i have been gaining more and more confidence back. I am back being cheeky and happy and i have made many people laugh with my stories. This stregth has come from somewhere and its making me a little scared.

I rememberd how much i enjoy making people laugh, its a gift i had and that gift has returned.

What happened next

I spent time with my Niece and nephew, brother and sister in law last weekend and that put some perspective in my life. The kids are my world and I know they look up to me a great deal and i decided that i am going to try everything in my power to be the best version of myself that i can be.

The last 2 weeks have been very positive for me. This weekend the novolty of having lots of chilling time is wearing very thin, but i kept busy and found some new music which is a passion of mine. I also managed to do a bit of running too.

Conclusion

Its ok to not be ok, its how you deal with that and find the strength to carry on even though the odds are very much stacked against you. Routeen at the weekend is equally as important to me as the week days.

Fingers crossed this week will be equally as positive as the last 2. Thank you to every single person that got me through that weekend that i hit the wall.